Please excuse my english, as it's not my native language. I want to
make this blog as real as possible, so i'll try to avoid LLMs in
their entirety, which might be reflected in the quality of the write
ups. But rather that, than reading something a robot wrote under the
premise of it being real human thoughts.
The typos makes us human.
I've never really blogged before and i've had some serious doubts
about starting to post stuff publically, as the thought of writing
something stupid or something that people dislike, scares me quite a
bit. Other peoples judgement of my work, is a huge source of anxiety
for me, but i think i've come to the conclusion of two things.
Firstly, probably nobody will read this, which is a relief that ties
nicely into the second point: I want to do this for myself. I want
to look at this as a digital journal in which i think it will be fun
to go back and look at in 10 years from now.
When i was younger i had a passion for photo- and video editing and
so i made a lot of gaming Youtube videos of me and my friends
playing. They started to get a bit of traction and random people
started to watch and comment under my videos and that really freaked
me out for some reason. As a result i just totally stopped making
videos. My passion for video editing died with that.
Now when i look back at it, it was kind of a dumb decision to just
"give up" like that. I wish i would have
documented more of these memories and moments from when i was having
fun with my friends, to look back at now, but i allowed myself to be
controlled by the opinions of others, and this is the price i must
pay for that.
Now it's time to learn from it and try again.